Where I am, What I am doing and all that....

SO It has come to my attention that there are still a lot of people who don't really know what's going on with me. Why I live in LA now....what brought me here..etc etc etc...
If you have been referred to this blog...don't be offended...I just can't repeat my story every time someone asks....I am sorry.

When I was in high school I decided I wanted to work with musicians and artists...promoting their talent and getting the music out for the public to hear and appreciate. Music is what fuels me...I love it. I love it without being able to play an instrument...being able to believe in the lyrics and music is enough to want to pursue a career in the music industry.
Once I decided that....life took me in many different directions and threw roadblocks in the way that I had to overcome and finally...9ish years later...I am here. I had thrown my career dreams out the window duie to being in a relationship with someone and that ending...I was able to grasp onto my dreams again and seriously pursue them. Once I was back n the career train...things started happening for me.
I came down to LA in June to help out with an event and meet some people in the industry...get my feelers out for the connections I need to have down here. I was able to check out neighborhoods and areas that I can afford and feel safe to live...Everything went so wonderful, I made some new friends and had a great time! Getting back to Spokane, I knew I had to get down here soon! I saw quite a few job postings on craigslist and got great feedback, but the employers were not interested in interviewing me further due to the fact that I lived in Idaho still. I told them I was preparing a move to the LA area...but they still decided to pass me up. I realized all the great jobs that were going to come into play for me were going to get me no where unless I lived there already. So what do I do...i look for apartments and places to live in LA and get on the ball for research...I NEEDED TO GET TO MOVE! I found a place online, contacted the landlord...it was a great match. The room was furnished and in a decently safe neighborhood and wasn't that expensive either. It was so perfect! Unfortuntately, the room needed to be filled asap and I couldn't move then. I stayed in contact with the landlord and figured out that Labor Day weekend a room would be ready for me and I could be a roommate. WELL the room ended up being available earlier than that by random chance and I lost it again! So bummed, already planned on moving down here at the end of summer. It was time to just get here. Without a job in the biz, I could find a job doing whatever to pay the bills until that music industry job came up. THANKFULLY it was meant to be that I live in this house I am in, because surprise suprise a room opened up and I got into the house I wanted!! Great price, great house, great roomies! It's awesome!
So I put in my notice at work, planned my road trip down and got here on Sept. 11th.

Since I have been here...I have been working as an intern at a music promotional company that is amazing and I am so grateful to help them. I get to learn things that I may not learn once I start at a label...and the experience is valuable...just like a paycheck almost. I have applied at many different places, sent in resumes to quite a few offices online...and have had not much luck getting a job. Soon, soon enough, I will have that job that gets me a paycheck and pays my bills. I can't wait to get that paycheck! I have a couple great leads for part time work until the label job comes up, and I think, depending on how I work it, I could work at Victoria's Secret...that would be so awesome! I would want that job forever though! That would be so frickin cool! AH!

So anyways...I have tried to be an extra in movies and tv down here...it's not as easy as it is in Spokane. So I decided to put more energy into finding a real job then trying to be an extra and make $60 a day.

I think that is a good enough update for those who have missed what's been going on.
If not...well...stay tuned. There will be more updates as time goes on.

Like the waves of the ocean

I sit on a section of rocks next to the ocean. The only clear sky in sight is a line at the edge of the ocean, as if the clouds are dozy eyelids drooping to close for some rest. The water is magnificently gorgeous, even without the sun blazing a reflection off it. The waves are echoing all around me or there is thunder trying to interrupt this serenity. Water trying to reach the tips of my toes doesn’t get close enough…even with the big waves pushing them harder each time. They remind me of the chaotic temperament my emotions have been having. Huge overwhelming uncontrollable waves all the way to soft, relaxed water almost rolling over the sand. In a matter of a few short seconds, the water repeats itself. So similar to my day to day chase of my dreams. Part of the sky is turning orange, the other still blueish grey. The calms waters last longer than the chaos but they chaos continues to show up. The beauty and peace of it all together really balances out and the calm waters always prevail. I must not forget that. If I ask, I shall receive. If I am strong and don’t give up those dreams I long to catch will one day be tight in my hands. No one gets to the top without trying. No one has a success story about floating through life with no pain or hardship or struggles.
Its day 15. Two weeks. It’s been half a month since I have played with my niece, It’s been 18 days since I have had a paycheck. I have had an even amount of bad days and good days. The bad days seem to be more frequent than I am used to, and more intense. It’s really an odd feeling. Me, being the annoyingly positive person I normally am, can’t fully grasp how the low times feel so low. I can try to talk myself out of them, and it has worked a handful of times. Not regularly enough for me. I KNOW I am going to get a job soon, and I KNOW I am going to get a job with a record label soon. I could end up with a job for a few months that isn’t in my career field, or I could end up getting a job with the label soon too. I don’t know what going to happen. I DO know that I need to be here. There is only trying and fighting and believing in what I can do. Not dwelling on what hasn’t happened yet. When I am working, I am happy. I thrive on being busy and having things that need to get done. I am used to having a list of things to do today, and things to follow up on. Why is it so hard to transition that from my job to what I have to do to get a job? I know me being homesick and without my normal surroundings makes it more difficult. I have GREAT roommates and the bestest friend down here anyone could have. These friends are amazing and I am so grateful to have them in my life right now.
The job I want is coming. The income I need is going to be here really soon too. I can feel that. MY credit and bills – they are getting paid soon. The good stuff has been happening more often and they have been surprisingly great great great things so the best is yet to come, the track is clear and open and the positive vibes are crashing through it like the waves.

It is time to head home, enjoy the slow traffic and be happy I am where I am. Enjoy a few drinks and good times with roommates and new friends.